If not death,then what is my ultimate fear?

Death, its simple. Its so simple, that when it arrives, its the only thing that matters and not the aftermath. Its so strikingly dangerous that when i hear about it, i wanna know how it feels. It envelopes the senses, when it is talked about the most. As much as people fear it, it makes me feel safe, cause I know what to name the end of my life. It arrives with stealth and it never hints about its arrival.

Death is frequently imagined as a personified force. We all have heard about the grim reaper or as in my fictional universe, the soul eater. It is usually a skeletal figure, who is often shrouded in a dark, hooded robe and carrying a scythe to “reap” human souls.

Its the most real thing that happens around you. There is nothing to think about death, cause in my free time, what I have to fight is life and not death. I will welcome it with bated breath, and when it arrives, i will accept it with open arms.

What frightens me the most is UNREQUITED LOVE.

Imagine climbing up stairs and reaching no destination. Just climbing and climbing, wishing to see a spark of light, but never being able to catch a glimpse. The exhaustion, the hope and the constant explosion of undervalued emotions, that is how unrequited love feels like.

It's like that song that never ends and the frustration of listening to only one tune makes it more unbearable. Its self destructive and it makes a person beg for the bare minimum. I remember writing a poem on how unrequited love ruins "the prospect of love" for us.

absurd

you have made me absurd

You have made me feel like the flower

In a weed garden

For a druggie.

You have made me feel like the butterfly

Among same colored moths.

You have made me feel like an extra bangle

In a set of 10,

But still waiting for my turn.

You have made me feel ordinary

When I am special for so many

And I hate that i believe you

You are doing it a lot

Choosing to stay in the dark

While the light switch is just one click apart .

Such a fool For you

That I became a firefly

And you trapped me in a jar.

mehreen